Birthday

So I've been pointed out recently about my Birthday coming up on July 20th, honestly I don't like it when I'm asked what I want for my birthday. Because in the 19 years I've lived, I haven't done anything that I'm remotely proud of. And I usually feel that I don't deserve anything. I have a friend Jeff (also known as Friend A), we've been friends since Elementary school. And of course I've gained new friends in these years but they all left the same way, we would just stop talking. But friends C and B did something different, they completely blocked me so even if I tried to contact them I wouldn't be given the opportunity.

But as for what gift I want for my Birthday, You know what I would like? To see my friend Jeff, B and C. It would be one of the greatest gifts to see all of us together again to go to the movies or to even just raid the mall. I have missed them ever since the day they've stopped talking to me, I even told them that what they were doing to me was going to eat at me for the rest of my life. And it has been, it's been hurting me ever since. I'm just dreaming though, this gift will never happen or occur another day as much as I'd want it too. And as much as I can hope that it does happen one day, I know it won't. Now I'm not really a believer of Astrology but here is my horoscope

The Protector: Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring.
Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive
and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love
from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.


It's getting more and more difficult from day to day to accept that I may never see them again. All of the moments we've all shared together brings a smile to my face, but it's quickly wiped away because I'm reminded that they're gone now. It's most likely that neither of them are reading this or even know about this blog but I just want to finish off by saying to them.

I miss you both very much and I wish you two nothing but the best, I know that he'll always be there for your emotional needs and that you'll be there for his. You both left quite an impact on me that I will never forget, everything I watch or see may be meticulously compared to you both. we had so many things in common and an equal amount of weirdness haha, You both will always be in my thoughts for the years to come.

Peace