Birthday

So I've been pointed out recently about my Birthday coming up on July 20th, honestly I don't like it when I'm asked what I want for my birthday. Because in the 19 years I've lived, I haven't done anything that I'm remotely proud of. And I usually feel that I don't deserve anything. I have a friend Jeff (also known as Friend A), we've been friends since Elementary school. And of course I've gained new friends in these years but they all left the same way, we would just stop talking. But friends C and B did something different, they completely blocked me so even if I tried to contact them I wouldn't be given the opportunity.

But as for what gift I want for my Birthday, You know what I would like? To see my friend Jeff, B and C. It would be one of the greatest gifts to see all of us together again to go to the movies or to even just raid the mall. I have missed them ever since the day they've stopped talking to me, I even told them that what they were doing to me was going to eat at me for the rest of my life. And it has been, it's been hurting me ever since. I'm just dreaming though, this gift will never happen or occur another day as much as I'd want it too. And as much as I can hope that it does happen one day, I know it won't. Now I'm not really a believer of Astrology but here is my horoscope

The Protector: Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring.
Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive
and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love
from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.


It's getting more and more difficult from day to day to accept that I may never see them again. All of the moments we've all shared together brings a smile to my face, but it's quickly wiped away because I'm reminded that they're gone now. It's most likely that neither of them are reading this or even know about this blog but I just want to finish off by saying to them.

I miss you both very much and I wish you two nothing but the best, I know that he'll always be there for your emotional needs and that you'll be there for his. You both left quite an impact on me that I will never forget, everything I watch or see may be meticulously compared to you both. we had so many things in common and an equal amount of weirdness haha, You both will always be in my thoughts for the years to come.

Peace

Rock Band

You've probably heard of this video game, It's gaining popularity and it's a fun party game. And yes that is my character I play as in the game (doesn't look like me that much but oh well) Even so that the story I was telling you about 2 posts ago during the hangouts we would actually play video games but mostly Rock Band 2 and finish it off with a movie. well, back to Rock Band, if you're not familiar with it, it's a game which you play a plastic guitar or drums and hit corresponding notes that come down the screen and you strum or strike as the note crosses the line on the bottom. It's actually much easier than it sounds. There is also a Microphone which is like karaoke but it actually has you singing in the right pitch. The nerd that I am I actually have the full band kit: 2 Guitars, A Microphone and Drums. I have been playing it a lot lately because every week they come out with new songs that you can purchase and rock out too, And lately they've had really good songs coming out, or maybe it's just my taste in music.......

(clears throat) Continuing on I actually have discovered music again because of this game and the songs I'm not familiar with I take a listen to and the ones that catch my interest has me actually buying the song in the game and buying it on iTunes as well to listen on my iPod.

hint hint to any artists who wants to sell more music

This game has become so popular in fact that they're actually coming out with another game called "The Beatles: Rock Band" which the title is self-explanatory, Beatles music you can rediscover by jamming along to it with some friends and maybe even some family members. Now please take the time to watch this Trailer for said game coming out.



That trailer better get you excited as I am haha. This game releases on September 9, 2009 or 9.9.09 and on the same day this game comes out Apple records is releasing all of the Beatles Albums' digitally remastered. Now you should be more excited about the Month of September lol...

So I just noticed that this post wasn't much of a thought but more of an informative post, And I know that I don't update this that often but trust me I have a lot of thoughts going through my mind about past and recent events and even upcoming events. All I have to do is sort it all out in my head so it's understandable for others to read. So I hoped you enjoyed this post and expect an update to my Transformers 2 review as I am planning to watch it a second time this Friday (Brüno will come soon) and follow me on Twitter if you're interested twitter.com/G5hockx21

Peace and Love

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen Review Update

Quickly changing the pace from depression of this blog, I thought I would express my opinion in another way by reviewing Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Now I am a person who knows about the Transformers franchise and I actually enjoyed the first Michael Bay adaptation what with the CG done by ILM and the original voice of Optimus Prime Peter Cullen reprising his role and other subtle details like that. On to the review, This film is the definition of a Summer Blockbuster film there's fast cars, explosions, the best CG you'll see in a film and....... a story that doesn't make much sense BUT HEY!!! ROBOTS TURNING INTO FRIGGIN' CARS!!! AND EXPLOSIONS!!! So this movie within the first 5 minutes literally starts off with a bang, it explains briefly that more Autobots have come to earth and they now work with the U.S. Military in a new formed agency called "NEST" and what they do is fish out Decepticons and destroy them, the one they encounter is about as big as half a football field and we see a brief cameo of both Sideswipe and Arcee and they have about 1 line each....... weak. And as they finish off the Decepticon he warns that "The Fallen shall rise again" So once they get back to base, this douche from the government comes up requesting that they shut down NEST because he thinks the reason why Decepticons are here are because of the Autobots. Which Optimus replies by saying they'll leave if they request but warns that he may be wrong. So then we see Sam getting ready to go to college and he finds a piece of the destroyed Allspark cube from the first film which it flashes images in his head which causes him to drop it, it burns through the floor and it brings his whole kitchen to life; blender, garbage disposal, microwave, cake mixer everything. So they start attacking Sam which he then calls for Bumblebee who is still his guardian, he comes out and kicks their asses. But then Sam tells him that he can't come with him to college because it's a freshman thing. And....... he apparently can't tell Mikaela that he loves her, well once at college his parents stay and look around, hilarity ensues. At a class He has a huge meltdown consisting of weird symbols like his great-grandfather had in the first film. Which at first nobody can make out what it is. And "the Fallen" (the main bad dude instead of Megatron) wants what is in his mind, it's supposed to be a map to where the Matrix of Leadership is, and that can control another thing, which will enable the Decepticons to destroy the sun thus destroying humanity, I'm not shitting you this is the storyline. Like I said this is a summer blockbuster film, there can be many other alternate storylines with all of the stuff going on in this film.

Fast forwarding to the ending sequence, It's one huge glorious piece of mindless film that consists of near-death, gun fire, explosions all in the desert and more Autobots vs. Decepticons kicking each others asses with some nicely choreographed fighting scenes. And honestly, you couldn't ask for more. Michael Bay knows what he's doing, it's not like this film has more potential, Transformers is mainly known for the action sequences and and a few epic battles happening every few moments and he delivers on that front. There are moments where you'll wince slightly at the slow-mo parts that look painful for the Decepticons, and during the film you'll probably cheer for the Autobots to win. And it can't be a Summer film without the laughs, there are moments in the film (like the mom eating a hash brownie or the jock having the tightest shirt joke) that you'll literally laugh out loud.

And there has actually been some controversy surrounding the twin Autobots Mudflap and Skids being the next Jar-Jar in films by using racist stereotypes. But honestly I found them funny and I never thought they were racist or a stereotype until I read an article about it. They actually add more color to the film and I found them amusing because in this generation there are a lot of white kids acting "gangster". Also the reviews from critics haven't been kind on this film, and I don't know why. I say to you as another person, It's a Summer Blockbuster Film, this is a film where you can just shut your brain off and watch mindless awesome action unfold in front of you and be transported to this alternate reality if Transformers actually existed. So in conclusion, if you're hoping for a film which has you putting thought and questioning throughout the film like The Dark Knight and Doubt does, you won't find it here. But if you're looking for a film that you can just unwind, watch some of the best action sequences in film that kicks major assage, and is also adequately satisfying to the fan-base. Than look no further than Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Update:
Well I recently gave this film a second watch and I actually enjoyed it more, the story makes much more sense and the action scenes were great to watch another time because you'll notice other minor details that ILM put with care, as for the story, I thought the Decepticons wanted to blow up the sun and destroy humanity for no reason. But the reason is because they harvest energy known as Energon from stars. (Example: our Sun) but the Primes only get Energon from stars nearby lifeless planets, so they don't destroy lives in the process. But The Fallen wanted to take the energy from our Sun because he despises the human race. He tried this in 17,000 B.C. by building a "Sun Harvester" on our planet but the other Primes stopped him and took The Matrix of Leadership which is also the key to activate the Sun Harvester. Then the last of the Primes created a barrier with their own bodies to encase and hide the Matrix of Leadership from the Decepticons, it's all explained by Jetfire (phew) So yeah, But like I've said, I really enjoyed watching this film a second time and hell I'll most likely watch it a third time. I'm for sure going to buy this when It comes out on Blu-ray no questions asked, hopefully it'll come soon haha. Well I hope this small update gave a small nudge for more people to see it, and btw there's a HUGE twist that happens in the middle of the film that almost had me crying. That i forgot to mention in the review. Just thought i'd throw that out there ;D

Peace

Audience of one

I can still remember

The words and what they meant

As we etched them with our fingers

In a year of wet cement

The days blurred into each other

Though everything seemed clear

We cruised along at half speed

But then we shifted gears

We ran like vampires from a thousand burning suns

But even then we should have stayed

But we ran away

Now all my friends gone

Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved

Run away

But what are we running from?

A show of hands from those in this audience of one

Where have they gone?

Identities assume us

As nine and five add up

Synchronizing watches

To the seconds that we lost

And I looked up and saw you

I know that you saw me

We froze but for a moment

In empathy

I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug

You gave my emptiness a name

And you ran away

Now all my friends gone

Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved

Run away

But what are we running from?

A show of hands from those in this audience of one

Where have they gone?

We're all okay, until the day we're not

The surface shines, while the inside rots

We raced the sunset and we almost won

We slammed the brakes, but the wheels went on

And we ran away

Now all my friends are gone

Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved

Run away

But what are we running from?

A show of hands from those in this audience of one

Where have they gone?

-Rise Against

A Story

I'm now at the lowest point in this rollercoaster ride we call life. Let me start from about a year ago, It was my friend "A's" graduation party and I met his friend "B" and she was a girl different from others I've met. Fast forwarding a bit I had a friend "C" who me and friend A knew since middle school but he just dissapeared by the end of middle school and we haven't heard from him since. But we found each other online and Friend A's birthday was coming up so me and him thought we should have C and B over to hang out, so we went through with that and it went off pretty well so I wanted to make this a weekly thing and I just referred to it as "the hangout" so we did hangout for the next few weeks on and off but then the holidays were coming up so we took a break and just spent time apart from one another. But i stayed in contact with friends B and C online and we even went on to using Skype and AIM. So after the holidays we once again did the hangouts on and off but at my house instead. But all of our schedules just kept getting busier so it would either just be all of us together or A would be left out or C would be left out but at some times it would be just me and B. What was the weird thing was that one dream I had one night was that myself B and C were hanging out and they both started talking to each other, then they started kissing which left me in an awkward position, shortly after they realized I saw them and I asked if they were dating, they looked at one another and replied "no, no we're not dating". And I would also have other dreams of friend B in the hospital. Well, going back to the story, at the time we all would hang out once every few times I would talk to B and C almost every night online but C just stopped talking to me in general, he offered no explanation, He just blatantly started ignoring me. I would try to contact him wishing that he is doing well but he would simply just not comply. So it was just me and B who would talk online, now fast forward to a couple of weeks ago and one night we talked about the subject of relationships and she was saying that she was really liking this guy she has been seeing for some time, and once I heard that I was really happy for her and I asked for the guys name but she didn't want me to know, but now I realize I wasn't respecting her privacy and kept persisting so she did give me a name and like a fucking idiot I asked for a picture of some sort and she said her mom was calling so I said alright but then she logs off after a few minutes. So I didn't think much of it, but shortly after I discovered that she had blocked me and friend C did as well. So it became obvious that they were dating. I sent an e-mail of apology to B for not respecting her privacy and I literally begged to please don't ignore me like C has. And at the night of that event I literally cried myself to sleep, but the next morning I wrote another e-mail to B explaining that I realize both her and C need their time together and that as much as it pained me, I'll leave them alone. That following week was nothing but hell for me, all I could think about was the times we all had together, I guess you can say It was putting me through depression. Now It's been some time since I haven't heard anything from B or C but I am still good friends with friend A and right now he's the only good friend I have left. He doesn't know that they're dating and I'm not really sure if I should tell him. Almost everyday I miss them, friends C and B. I still haven't really established why they blocked me but didn't block friend A. It seems as though they just want to forget that we were ever friends at one point and I myself am trying to do that as well but every now and then I catch myself thinking about them. The relation we all had left an impact on me. I never had any romantic thoughts of B because I knew it would just ruin the friendship we had. I never wanted to jeopardize what we had, I wanted to be friends with them for the next 5-10 years, hell even for the rest of our lives. But those thoughts went down the drain that night, I know that everyone has to go through a major loss at least once in their lifetime. But I didn't think it would hurt this much. And I never thought that it would be them I would lose. I don't know, I felt the need to ventilate this out somewhere so others can hear this story and might even learn from it, who knows. So I guess I'll end this post with the last quote I wrote to her when I was saying goodbye.


Who's gonna save my soul now?
Who's gonna save my soul now?
I wonder if I'll live to grow old now
Getting high cause I feel so alone now
And maybe it's a little selfish
All I have is the memory
Yet I never stopped to wonder
Was it possible you were hurting worse than me
Still my hunger turns to greed
Cause what about what I need...

Who's gonna save my soul now?
Who's gonna save my soul now?
I know I'm out of control now
Tired enough to lay my own soul down

-Gnarls Barkley